Crumbling Spine

I know what I have to do, I know what’s right/ I can’t see what’s coming up as the sun’s too bright/ Face a constant struggle and don’t get anywhere/ Get back to where you started walking in a circle or a square/ Seems I’m about to miss out on my prime/ Left alone with a crumbling spine./
Jumped from the cliff, landed on the rocks/ Missed out on the ship as I couldn’t find the docks/ I was too stubborn to ever change my stance/ Thought I knew what I was doing so I took a chance/ Sat in the dark sipping a sour wine/ Left alone with a crumbling spine./
The horse’s breath is steaming in the stable/ Eating dinner with dead blackbirds on the table/ Finding time to breathe becomes a chore/ Movement in the trees doesn’t scare me anymore/ I spat on my feet to get my shoes to shine/ Left alone with a crumbling spine./
Wearing a smile to hide my fears/ Haunting the places I’ve not been for years/ Search is on, not easy I know/ Prefer the dark of the lamp turned low/ Took the toughest road, thought that I’d be fine/ Left alone with a crumbling spine./
You ask me for applause, attention and a kiss/ It’s a filthy party I fall asleep and miss/ The water looks pretty shallow from where I’m sat/ Never found a way to say how I felt about that/ Thanks for the offer but I won’t rejoin your kind/ Left alone with a crumbling spine./
Death has stalked my corridors, watched me sleep at night/ Makes me think it will turn out alright/ Could be the blossom falling could be snow/ Just keep going the best way I know/ Work hard to clear a worried mind/ Left alone with a crumbling spine.